fiona's blog has now become my source of umm, syf result updates? teehee. but i remain tremendously traumatized by the terrifying trend that she's pointed out - like uhm, my mouth's still gaping at this following piece of information:

20th: 0 (gold with honours).
[put into context, it reads thus (numbers refer to the number of gold with honours given out on that day:
17th: 3 ; 18th: 2 ; 19th: 1 ; 20th: 0
see? i bet you get the point.]

ohno. but then, come to think of it, there's no point worrying about the results of other schools whatsoever, because in a way, as long as we put in our very best and reach the standards that we've always been working towards, i don't think there's any reason that we can be denied of the award that we're looking forward to. not saying that the general performance across the nation doesn't factor in, but in comparison to how we as an individual choir manage our vocal technique (consonants! tone! blend!) and inject emotions into our pieces, i don't think it really matters that much anymore.

and like msloo says, it's increasingly becoming a psychological battle. not only in terms of involving oneself emotionally with the piece, releasing inhibitions and all, but also keeping the faith in the choir, in everyone else, that we're going to make it through, no matter what. granted, self-confidence cannot be done to the excessive, but without self-confidence, it's not going to be easy standing up there on stage and expressing yourself. things may not be looking too good at times, what with disappointments and (ahem) fluctuations in pitching + overall standard, but well, it's not going to help anyway if you keep dwelling on the less-than-happy stuff, so let's just say i shall be (hopefully not fatally) optimistic in this respect. :D

[yeah sometimes i wonder if i'm too much of a dreamer. is it possible that we can go further, or will we be just stuck at some level, neither here nor there? at times i feel as if i should get my feet firmly on the ground - think extra strong super glue - but then again, it would be conflicting with my beliefs, that somehow, somewhere, we can totally do it together.]

hmm actually, like mich says, no matter about the colour, we're just going in to sing, communicate with the audience about what it really is like to be human. every time i hear msloo's justifications of why we're doing this over something else, why we're not going to follow in the footsteps of everyone that has come before us, i'm always in awe because it seems that she has absolutely everything planned out properly for us, and in a way i think we ought to be thankful for having such a fantabulous conductress. :D as in, how she explained our choice of programme was totally mind-blowing - how it was going to convey the entire idea of humanity, how our 'theme' of sorts for syf'o7 was to be the flourishing of human emotion and such. and well, she just works wonders with her conducting, plus her voice (and uhm, her humour?) is much love. (:

ahh itsuki! i think the emotions involved do need to be built up over a period of time, like the more you sing it, feel the harmonies and involve yourself in the music, the more intense the emotions connected with this piece becomes. in my humble-and-probably-but-hopefully-not-inaccurate-to-the-extreme opinion, we sounded rather good today. yay us! granted, we might be missing a few points here and there, but the general feel is getting better, and better! :D haha feels like prague once more, what with sudden improvements just immediately before we took to the stage. and veni (okay fine supposedly de spiritu sancto but i've gotten so used to calling it veni so i shall just stick to it)! we're inching closer to the emajor chord, but hmm, i wish we didn't go off-pitch just a few bars into the song. intonation is tricky, really. go off-pitch and we end up straining our voices, wondering how to form those nice crunchy chords, and even possibly forming some weird expression that immediately gives it away that we are ahem, off-pitch. not worth it at all, grawr.

so that leaves us with everyone sang? i must, must go and practise the piano part. [somehow there's this weird feeling that i might just fail rgschoir, which i have aboslutely no intention of doing.] pffffft, i seriously hope that the balance will turn out just fine at vch on the 24th, because as much as the piano part enhances the song, it shall not end up drowning the entire choir, not that i can do that, of course, but still. apart from the weird stresses on the words, i still think it's an awfully pretty piece. :D

[hoho but steinway here i come! (:]

ohwell, that's about what i have to say for now? i don't think it's 'sing for the love of music' anymore, it's more like 'sing for your love of music', or better still, 'sing for our love of music'!
rgschoir, we can do this! :D

[random additions: writing to juniors is much love, makes me feel older for once. x) no as in, it sort of helps you release your emotions too, very much like this blogpost, hmm? and thank you all for the wellwishes! :D]

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wants the world to be filled with peace, joy and love, and also wants (perhaps a little more selfishly) to be happy, plus lead a life of purpose. that would be more than enough. (:

oh, and she likes embarking on her own 'free hugs!' campaigns after exams and the like; not really sure why. D: (at any rate, you can tell that she's random enough.)

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